i'm drowning!!!!!!

i hate my life.. have you ever felt like that? everything is aggravating me...the sound of my child's voice, aggravates me... the fact that Ol faithful has finally moved on after waiting for me to come around after all of these years, aggravates me ( not that i want him, cuz i don't but because he was my joker that i was saving for a rainy day...you know if it ever became apparent that i wasn't going to find anyone else to worship the ground i walked on) well i am just so tired of being stagnant and tired of finding out when i thought i was moving in a straight line, finally making some progress that i was really just going in a circle just a different circle from before.


so my child's teacher wants to know why he doesn't have all black or brown shoes...i was like, my child told me you asked him this already and he told you that his mommy didn't have any money...she was like yeah, he did...and i'm like well wth is your problem then, you already know why he ain't got no black or brown shoes...cuz i ain't gots no money... so do whatever you need to do..if that means he has to sit in the principal office until i come pick him up some 6 hours later...so be it.

then my car... i hate the fact that i don't know the engine from the brake..i hate being put in positions where i can be taken advantage of....and well since my head gasket blew new year's eve and the piston was already knocking, i had no choice but to spend my bar/mortgage money to get a new engine...and the reason being was that this getting up at five in the morning to chase the bus with my child to get him to school on time and me only 45 minutes late, well it's for the birds. the waiting for a bus that may or may not show up on time is for the birds...and well i am just tired of paying 10 bucks a day to metro...


i am tired of my child opening the fridge and saying mommy we have no food...i am so tired of being that duck on the still pond. i am ready to soar with the eagles....but it's hard to soar when you have clipped wings

URG!!!!