Blowing up in my face

So, i want to be in control because i don't want to be hurt but my desire not to be hurt leads me to getting hurt....makes a lot of sense.

It's like a sickness, I know that I should stop, stop being so mean so annoying and so irritating but the more i fall for him the meaner i get...

until he reaches his breaking point and decides enough is enough and i am left standing here: begging, crying, pleading my case, all of which fall on death ears


i mean what does it mean that i don't want to be in a relationship... does it mean i don't want to be in a relationship with you crazy girl.. does it mean i don't want to be in a committed relationship... does it mean i just don't want to be in a relationship...

i may not know what it means; but i surely know how it feels........

like crap


brknh8td yeah that's me... i miss my super hero