May God have mercy on your soul

Dear Coward,

I don't hate you, i just don't understand you... i don't understand how you could have done what you did when you have two daughters of your own. It's sad cuz I don't think you realize how much your temporary moment of pleasure has reaked havoc on my entire life, my entire being... how it crushed my ego and altered my perception of the world... things got a whole lot darker and uglier and i stopped trusting others and most importantly, i stopped trusting and believing in me. I hope no one violates your daughters the way you did me. I hope they never have to walk in my shoes...
I hope that by saying this, I am freed of my last demon that has a hold of me. I hope that i am free to love and be loved completely. I hope that i start seeing things for all the good that it possess and not instantly focus upon the shadiness and ugliness. I hope you get some help for your sickness.
you need to get on your knees and thank God because it was not in his will for you to be dead, that is the only reason i can think of that i was not able to get my hand on that hammer cuz Lord knows i was gonna bash your brains out.. and that's the only reason i didn't give the go ahead to take you out...and that's the only reason your Mama's house, where i hope you ain't still living, is still standing.
i just wanted to know that i for everything you took for me, i will get back and then some because i am a survivor... you may have caused me to fall and stay down for a very long time, but the fact that i am moving and searching for a way to get back up on my feet or to even just crawl on my knees means that you did not totally destroy me..just mean you stunned me and caught me off guards.

may God have mercy on your soul
Truthz