The varied responses.

so i wrote a letter from my heart and sent it without regard to what the responses would be...
but responses there were and so i will share them with you.

Response 1:

Aww, I'm about to cry. You are so mature! I love you too!!!!!!!!!

Response 2:

Such a wonderful Mother's Day message. Thank you so much for that. Love, Mama Lee


Response 3:

Dear tRuthz, We love you too and you are always in our hearts. Love, Li

Response 4:

That was so beautiful! I love you too! (with the new big animated crying smiley)

Response 5:

I am reading this for the second time. You really shouldn't put yourself down, you are a wonderful smart young lady, mother, daughter and friend. You have a wonderful personnality and you are always there for me when I need you so this thing called family really works. Family are the people who stick together and lean on each other for support and we are family. What ever it is that I do, it is because we are family and I love you and that big head boy of yours. Now that you are in the family, you can't get out unless you die. In other words it't a life sentence.
(my response to my mama's comment)

The thing is mama, i have been neglecting everyone else in my life...all the mamas and sistahs that have held me down before i even came out here. maybe you don't remember how i was six years ago...which would be before the rape and the twins...but i was a totally different person...i always called the faithful ten and their mamas, but after that, i stopped. I shut everyone out, except maybe your family and [name deleted]--....i even shut my uncle [] out. I am very grateful for your family because your family has given me something that i didn't have here...and that was a support system. and a place to feel comfortable...and it's taught me that it was okay for me to be touchy feely, to say I love you, to hug and kiss one another regardless of sex...naw, didn't do that at home with my immediate family...always hugged my aunts and cousins, but that was about it. i wasn't putting myself down in that email, i was being very honest. i know what i am capable of and i know what i have been putting out. and i have failed as a friend a sistah and daughter for the most part with regards to most of the people on the list. which is why i got booted out of the wedding because i was being an awful friend... i could have picked up the phone when she called but i didn't feel like being bothered...i didn't feel like hearing about how someone else was exceling while i was struggling...


and before you say anything, mama i am struggling which is why i am putting my condo on the market...i have too much pride to let them snatch it and too much pride to sit around and talk abt it...in my mind, it's just something i have to do to ensure i make it to that next plateau. and i have too much common sense to take [Luv] for child support... and just in case you haven't gotten it yet, i didn't know what i was getting into when i got involved with him...it was no way for me to know because i had no idea who i was at the time...i was too wounded to care what i was getting into...all i knew was that he showed me attention and that's what i wanted...some one on one attention.




i thank Jehovah every night for allowing us to meet. and i am grateful that you don't treat me any differently from your own kids...i love you with all of my heart and i know without a doubt that you love me too, and that's why its so easy for me to reciprocate everything....because i know it's genuine...and i accept my life sentence happily.



i love you mama.

(mama's response to my response)


You hold a lot of stuff in side and it is good that you writing your feelings down so that you can deal with them. It is not healthy to hold things in, you have to deal with things in order to move on. You always have Jehovah to talk to and to pray to. He does answer prayers. I will always be here for you when you want to talk, but remember I don't know everything and the advice I give you is my opinion unless we pray over it first and my God tells me what to say. Your prayers will get you through all the things that you are going through.


Some times when you are dealing with issues like school (professional school) and raising a child it is hard to have time for everyone and everything in your life. Your family and friends will understand your situation when you share with them.


I am convenient for you because I am here, in [the neighborhood], and it is good to have family near. Your biological family and your Chicago friends love you and care about you too. Your parents may not know how to show you how much they care but they love you so much and they are so proud of you. If I love you and care about you so much, how could your family not feel the same thing. Sometimes people don't know how to show love because they were never shown love and they think it is a sign of weakness.

You and [Your Child] are part of the family now and will always have a place in our hearts.


Luv, Luv, Luv, when I tried to talk to you about Luv you told me "I got this mama, I know what I am doing." I knew that you did not know what you were doing but what could I do. When it comes to matters of the heart it is hard to tell someone that the path that the are traveling is not good. But God had a plan for you and it was [Your Child]. He is here, he is real, and we all love him. To [Luv] he may be just another child, but to us he is special (not in a mental way--smile) and he knows that he is loved and he doesn't have to worry about where his next meal is coming from and if he has clothes to wear or if he has toys to play with. He is blessed and God gave him to someone who will take care of him and love him, not some crack head mother. We can't cry over spoiled milk. Luv is who he is, he is [Your Child's] daddy and that is it. If you stilll have feelings for him, it is time for you to get over them and grow up. It may be hard but Truthz you have your future and a new career ahead of you. He is a married old man with children, he is low income, and he has no values, he pays no child support and the only thing that he deserves is visiting privileges with his son. I am glad that you had [Your Classmate] to give [Your Child] some time and attention and to let him know how a male figure should treat a young boy. Continue to pray and in time your feelings for [Luv] will be only of freindship and your future will be very bright with opportunities work related and relationship related.

response 6:

awwww, you are so sweet! Hey, I was pleasantly surprised to get the card and e-mail from you. The card was totally unexpected and put a smile on my face. You know we'll be friends for life, no doubt about it! I'm always here if you need me and I know you'll be there for me too. I guess I have to send you some pictures before I get some from you :) smile I'll do my best to put some in the mail soon. I couldn't register with facebook, I don't know my work e-mail and I don't have a CAU address (I didn't really read the directions thoroughly) maybe I'll try again later. Take care and e-mail me/call me soon. Luv Ya like a sister :)


response 7:

THAT WAS SO TOUCHING!! YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD HEARTED PERSON AND EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS THINGS ARE TOO TRYING YOU WILL ALWAYS FIND THE STRENGTH TO GO ON. I LOVE YOU