taking chances

So, things have been going crazy over here for a minute I have to make clarifications about some things but i will do that later and it may seem like i am rambling but it's due to a lack of sleep and the fear that my computer will shut down on me again. the virus is supposed to be gone but i am still having some problems getting on to blogspot... Anyways, so my lil man has been sick. Pneumonia. and if you have been reading you know that he gets really sick in Dec and Jan so i am a lil on edge even though i am trying to take things in stride. AND surprise, surprise, I am sick. I have a hacking cough and i have been feeling very lightheaded at the most inopportune time, like when i am driving. i had to go see a cardiologist the other day because my ticker hasn't been ticking the way it should. i don't know if it is anxiety attacks, heart attacks or just old fashion gas. but something is going on. probably my heart is shutting down from being stomped on for so long. or it could be from the hot fudge sundaes i eat every day....or from the twenty pounds i put on after i changed my BC this summer. ( yeah, that's why a sista looking PHAT to death lately) but whatever it is, it's not good. so, i have to have a lot of tests done to see if my heart valves are okay. and i am really not afraid for myself, i am afraid for my son. noone can do the mama thing for him betta than me!!! even if i don't show him touchy feeling love. other than that, a sista has been walking with more pep in her step......flaunting her sex appeal which has even managed to mesmerize the mentally retarded...(this is not a joke as i am sure anonymous will comment on and verify for the masses, lol.) oh, before i forget, i want to get one of my classmates something special just to say thank you. he has always gone beyond the call of duty when it comes to my son. i sent him some of the best popcorn in the world (cheese-kissed carm.), but that still doesn't seem like enough. he not only took me home from school because my car wouldn't start, but took me to get my son, whom he calls his son, and took us to the hospital and waited the SEVEN HOURS it took for them to tell me he had Pneumonia, again. and then he drove us home and offered to come by the next day and bring food. ( and i should mention, he has a girlfriend so he ain't trying to get the drawls). so give me some suggestions....and seeing i ain't his mama, i ain't giving him no tie and suspenders.