The green-eyed monster has resurfaced again

Before i talk about that boogie man that comes out right when i am trying to become secure in a new comfort zone i want to say this..


The two JH's did their thing on the BET awards... but Jennifer Hudson (chi-town) blew Ms. Holliday outta the water, all that talkn smack for what? I mean she did her thang too but Ms. Hudson sounded better than she did on dream girls, i mean on one note she came from her toes to her head back down to her toes and stopped at the pit of her soul... and T.I. well that boi knows he soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo dang ol tasty looking.


so the boogie mans comes out and sabotages things and i don't know how to control it... i don't know why i get jealous and a lot of times it be over stupid stuff. i mean i am so tired of being in my feelings over mole hills. but i am not quite sure how to be comfortable in the space that i occupy in other people lives. i mean how do you feel okay if your space doesn't appear to be secure? one day you at the top of their totem pole, they calling you when they need to make all the important decisons then next you are hearing about all the important decisions they have made... you go from being number one to not even existing.....

maybe it's because i have had to fight for so much in life that everything has become a competition for me "to stay on top" it's almost like a sickness. fighting for the spotlight.... i don't like being jealous ... it sort of sneaks up me and before i know it i'm off my square, now it's time for me to slaughter the boogie man cuz i am not really a fan of green eyes.