my souls cries out

what's a girl to do when she is raising (yeah i know it's rearing) a manchild...what's a girl to do, when she is doing it by her lonesome. what's a girl to do when all around her she sees what the others did who didn't have a clue. i don't know if they simply gave up or turned a blind eye...but i do know that it's too many manchilds running around like they're Xtras in Juice, or maybe it's Boyz in the Hood, or some other black gangsta movie that glorifies that the thugged out mess is the way to go...and yeah i like me an eduthug BUT an eduthug ain't slanging on the corners, or hanging out all night. an eduthug ain't killing his brother over some Nikes an eduthug got his head and the books knowing that can get his megadough.. an eduthug aint pointing no blue light and packing no gun.. what's a girl to do...do i pull a Beloved and do my time holding on to it was better by my hands than at the hands of the streets...what's a girl to do when she tucking in her lil man hoping and praying he lives to see 22.