Do you eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeva?

it's funny that a song can pen my thoughts so perfectly.
o Oct. 31st i resolved to let sleeping dogs lie and get on with my life
to accept things for what they are, adding nothing and taking nothing away
but it's so hard sometimes to just walk away from something without feeling a certain kinda way.
without wondering who's fault was it....if something could have, should have been done...or just done differently...and then you have to think if that was the case would you have been able to do what you could have or should have done...
were you too sensitive, too clingy, too affectionate, too flirty, too prudish
ORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRr
were you too insensitve, too distant, too standoffish, not flirty enough, too loose
was something wrong with you...did you stink...were you too skinny, too tall, too fat? , too short...was your hair too long were your nails too short. did your snorting become too much to handle? was it something you said or didn't say? and sadly, the list goes on and on
and i wonder why can't it be that it just didn't work out...that it just couldn't be because you were too different to try and become similar.
but even as i ask this question i am wondering, is he wondering about me? is he thinking about me? does he ever wonder about me? about how i feel and what's going on with me?
but why should it even matter? we aren't together so why should he?